Reasons Why My Life Sucks

I knew it would happen eventually...the inevitable point in January where the Resolution Train would start losing steam. I was eating healthy, exercising every day, bound and determined to have a positive energy all the time... and let me tell you, I'm exhausted! It's hard work having to be a positive person all the time.

Don't get me wrong, I'm not an innate grump, but being upbeat and all smiles all the time takes a lot out of a gal. I'm a big believer that if you put positive energy out into the universe you'll receive positive energy in return, but let's face it...sometimes the universe gives you crap in return. Which brings me to my next philosophy in life: be congruent with who you are and what you're feeling. Putting up a facade and trying to act like you're happy when you're not expends a lot of energy.

That's why I'm so exhausted. My quest to be little miss sunshine has left me incongruent with how I'm really feeling at times. So, I started my little book of complaints, which is just literally a book I use to vent all my feelings and frustrations. Just get all the bad stuff out, and get over it. My first entry was "Reasons Why My Life Sucks" - here is a small sampling, if you will:

3. I haven't been in a relationship for 2 years...
8. I look like I have a uni-boob...
13. I'm addicted to carbs, sweets, and approval...
15. I don't understand football...
19. I have no life experience...
25. Without Nair I look like a yeti...

While some things on my list are too personal to share with the world, for the most part these things I've just mentioned are trivial. I was going through a pity party when I wrote all those things, but now they're pretty funny. You have to allow yourself to feel the emotion, experience the healing, and create a plan of attack to overcome the slump. Now me, I just have to remember that eventually everything will come full circle and the reasons why my life sucks now will be erased and replaced with new reasons. I intend to keep the faith that one day I will meet a lovely gentleman full of compliments who loves uni-boobed, neurotic yetis, and will be content to spend the rest of his days feeding me biscuits. Oh yeah...he's out there!